I have similar feelings and I was raised in a very controlling home. It took me years to realize the environment I grew up in wasn’t healthy, because that was my “normal”. It could be the same for you, but only you and/or a mental health professional could say for sure.
I miss the specific game subs, like Elden Ring, Satisfactory, Hades, etc. I don’t think we have the population yet to have subs like these with lots of content posted each day.